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Thursday, 05 November 2009

  • I Thought I Could,But I Was Wrong.

      The tears almost started to flow.I though I would lose it,It took all I had to act as if nothing was wrong.Its been said that its not my fault,but I know that people are just trying not to make me feel bad.It IS my fault and please don't try to tell me other wise.

      Seeing what I saw bring back memories I worked hard to repress.Don't feel bad about it though,cause I'm sure it was bound to happen sometime,so why not sooner rather then later.

       Me developing boarder line insomnia has had its plus side,I have had time to think about things.My conclusion, I don't know what I'm suppose to do.

       I wish I could change things,I wish I could tell people how I feel,I wish I knew how I feel.

Saturday, 31 October 2009

Thursday, 29 October 2009

Wednesday, 28 October 2009

  • Dear *****,

        I'll start off by saying in many ways I miss you,I miss you more then even I thought.Its been awhile,and I think if there was not that time then it would only make this that much harder.Talking to you now brings back those memories,knowing that things will never be as they were,it almost hurts,yet I know its for the best.

       I now know that its over,everything we ever had.I think I knew this subconsciously,but its not until now that I have had to face it.People say 'sometimes being a friend means masering the art of timing.There is a time for silence.A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny.And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it all over.',now its all over and I feel I'm the only one picking up the pieces.

       I used to think that holding on would make me strong,now I see its letting go.This has not been easy,I fought to hold on,you fought to let go.Time went by so fast,you were in my life and then out,but you never miss an opportunity to tell me how much I meant to you.

       While I know you will most likely never read this,I still feel it need to be said.I hope that when we are older,and we both past the things that have happened,and we see one another on the street,we can still talk as we used to.

      There's an important difference between giving up and letting go,you gave up,I'm simply letting go.Life wouldn't be the same without you and all the memories you have given me,Good Bye.

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

  • Be Yourself Already!

     I often find myself confused about people.

       Do they like you?Do they not like you?If they don't like you why do tay often ask as if they do?And if they do  like you,why not tell you already?All questions I'm sure ill never have the answer to.

       Really though,thats not the main thing I meant when I say people confuse me.It seems to me ( and correct me if i am wrong) that people just cant be themselves,how God made them.

       There are always those girls who change who they are just to please some guy who they like.Or the girls who strive at all costs to be like some other girl who they think is better looking or more popular.

        As for guys,well they seems to have to ack a certain why,treat people a certain way,just to fit in.Some times I wonder if it is in the makeup to be jerks.(just an add on,when you do find a good guy he is either taken or has no intrusts in you)

       My question is,What ever happened to being yourself??